Canna Queen

I have been having so much anxiety. I feel like I'm falling back into that hole that I was in. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. I'm going through the biggest transition of my life with moving to a new place with strangers, starting at a brand new school, and a brand new job. It's super stressful. I was excited before getting here but when I actually got here, all I can constantly feel is my anxiety telling me this is bad. I have morning anxiety, daytime anxiety, afternoon/evening anx...

Hey guys! I am 420 Nurse intern Canna Queen. I haven't been on in awhile, I have been so busy adjusting to my new life. And I still have a long way to go. I am officially living in a dorm at CSULA and it kinda sucks! I'm still getting used to always being at school...it's interesting. I'm taking 5 communications classes as well as working 20 hours a week. Sometimes I get a little more hours and I was loving it at first but now I feel like I can't really handle working so much while trying to pas...

It’s a scary feeling to not know where you’re going in life. It’s a roadblock I’m lost most of the time I’m here. I am scared a lot of the time I’m here. I get nervous about too much. I shouldn’t care. Why am I so sick? ...

Hi all, I've been struggling a lot with my anxiety lately and I'm not sure why. A lot of people in my life are trying to come up with reasons for me to be anxious that didn't make me anxious before, or I'm not even sure if they did. (sidetone: I'm super high rn so sorry if I don't make sense) For 6 days straight, I had a panic attack each day. Most of those days I woke up super anxious and then went to sleep like that as well usually on medications that are not weed. I stopped smoking after m...

So update: my anxiety has been tremendously better. For those 6-7 days, it was just the absolute worst. I didn't feel like myself and I couldn't be there in the world for some reason. I know that doesn't make sense but that's what it felt like for me. Then I started smoking again and my new medications started to kick in. I am so happy to be mostly anxiety free again with the help of cannabis and unfortunately scripted meds but you know what if it helps then who cares. I need to find some new st...

Does anyone else get lazy when it's raining outside? Or even just gloomy and cold? It makes me feel so tired and sleepy. Like I want to curl up into a ball and watch movies all day, fall asleep on and off and eat a bunch of shitty ass food. I love doing nothing. I'm not sure if it's my depression, the medications I'm on, the weed I'm smoking, how much I'm smoking, the fact that I am smoking, or if it's just that I love doing nothing. I want to want to do stuff. I just don't want to do it. Maybe ...

Hey y'all, Hope everyone is doing fantastic. I am wonderful. I just got back from a meeting on campus and am trying to finish up some homework before I go to the dining hall for dinner. I've been medicated almost all day and I've been loving it. I wish I didn't have baby lungs and could handle more of this pen without coughing. My lungs can't keep up with my tolerance but I hate edibles lmao. I have been so busy since school started. Actually since before school started. I feel like I'm just ...

Hi guys! I’m hella early to class because my psychiatry appointment ended earlier than expected. So I have some time to write! I’ve actually been doing fucking fantastic and that’s very exciting news. I don’t know how long it’ll last, hopefully awhile. But I’m riding it out. I love feeling great and being in a good mood everyday. I’m not sure if it’s the new medication I’m on or if it’s just me. I hope a combination at least. School is going good. It could be better but there’s ALWAYS room fo...

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I feel pretty good today. My body feels great and I feel relaxed. I need to get some stuff done this morning and I have work later at 4. Today is going to be a fantastic fucking day and I just want to send these positive vibes out there for someone else to catch. I want to spread a little love. I am so excited for my scene with my acting partner. We started finally working on it because she's been out of state for a family medical emergency. I could have practiced with someone else but you know ...

Let me tell y'all that my first time being at Friday Night Sesh was fucking magical. So I first found out about it back in December on Instagram...I know, such a long time ago. I was VERY interested in the event, but it was pretty far from me so I would succumb to local delivery services and shops. I finally got to go one night in the middle of January and I couldn't be more ecstatic. I went with some old high school marching band friends and we all thought it was amazing! It's literally like Di...