Glooms

Does anyone else get lazy when it's raining outside? Or even just gloomy and cold? It makes me feel so tired and sleepy. Like I want to curl up into a ball and watch movies all day, fall asleep on and off and eat a bunch of shitty ass food. I love doing nothing. I'm not sure if it's my depression, the medications I'm on, the weed I'm smoking, how much I'm smoking, the fact that I am smoking, or if it's just that I love doing nothing. I want to want to do stuff. I just don't want to do it. Maybe I need to start exercising everyday again. That helped get me out doing more things because I felt better about myself maybe. I want to go out but I don't want to go alone. And when other people say let's go out, I suddenly don't want to go or I get sleepy and lazy. Maybe I'm just making excuses. Maybe I just need to suck it up and force myself to be awake during the fun times and the important times. I need to force myself to go on that walk or jog instead of taking that nap and smoking. I need to go to the mall with my friends instead of laying in bed all day watching pointless youtube videos and binging Netflix and Hulu tv shows. Maybe I should stop paying for my Netflix account? Lmao let me know what y'all think, whoever fuckin reads my posts. I love U. You beautiiful human. Thank you for listening. Stay positive and stay cool out there. Keep smoking fat and eating good y'all. CannaQueen