I am a 420 nurse intern and joined in 2014. They did not have medical marijuana where I live at that time and didn’t catch up until 2 years ago. That is when I started building my group/chapter in Florida. I was planning on being in Miami and ended up in Jacksonville. I have a traveling group because that is what I do for the most part. This virus is the first time I have stayed my butt in town for a month. 420Nurses Kushlife chapter was created because I go to Vegas, DC, Chicago, LA, NJ, NY, and Miami during the different shows I attend. Exxxotica Expo, AVN, Fetishcon, Xbiz, Camcon, and there are weed events also. The Champs Show, Big Industry Show, Reefermania, the Continental Cannabis Cup, and many more are a few of the places I meet wonderful people that I want to keep up with. That is why I made a virtual team and now it has become normal to run an online meeting. I am excited that we will have zoom meetings on 420nurses so we can chat and smoke like back in the 
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Mother’s day is today and I have 7 children as well as 2 grandchildren. I am a grandma, a 420 nurse intern, an online/print model, a pink hatter in the Red Hat Society and I teach people about nutrition and health with Juiceplus/Towergarden. One has to wear so many hats now to keep up with the world. I remember my grandmother just doing basically nothing. The days of grandpa making money and grandma and grandpa retiring don’t seem to be in the future for me. I am actually getting divorced and planning something different for me. I just want time with my kids and to build for them. I can’t really take time out to baby some grown man along the way. I still want to be alive and part of the world. I want to share my experiences with younger women so they will know they aren’t abnormal. I love making friends at our events. Cam modeling has brought me so many cute friends and I love it.
Being a mom is so hard. Being a wife is hard but you can leave that shit if it sucks. You can’t leave being a mom because then your kids will be lost. Bad moms affect their kids forever. Dads kind of affect your life but moms really more. You expect your mom to love you and if she loves drugs or dick more than you automatically think it’s your defect that caused it. It’s her defect. It’s not always possible to choose the right path. Moms are expected to be happy and do all the slave duties given to them with a smile every day with no break. It’s not that easy for everyone. SO much pressure put on young moms to have do everything correctly, bath your kids, dress them, get them places on time, and feed them. Then do all that for you too. I have friends who have a herd of kids all in a row. I do not know how they will survive. I can watch 5 kids because I have experience in crowd control. I once took 5 kids out trick or treating in a mall. I did not lose anyone. I am not 20 years old though. I thought your patience must get greater as you age because I always saw old people smiling when they see kids and it seemed like they were slow and gentle with them. That is not the case. My patience is lacking when my kids do the same dumb shit 5 times in a row. I thought being a grandma would be easier than being a mom because they don’t live with you. I think I spend more money on my granddaughter than any other kid in the family. It’s so cute to me when she calls me grandma. Even if it precedes, “I want.” Lol. I feel old. I just want everyone to know no matter how hard it gets if you can possibly just keep moving even if it's really slow you will still get to your goals. I am impatient so when life starts going slow I start pacing.
Even if you feel underappreciated now don’t dwell on it at some point you will win. Things have to be hard sometimes or you won’t feel like you are winning when you have fewer problems. Never put dick before your kids, even if he’s got money. You are a package deal if someone doesn’t like your kids then he doesn’t really like you. That might seem harsh but it’s better than your child getting harmed by someone who shouldn’t have been around them to start with. There is nothing better than your child’s smile no matter what age they are.
I am going to have cook for Mother’s Day because I want the food done right. I am going to make some curry chicken and rice for my kids because my 14-year-old son absolutely loves it. My 11-year daughter will be happy I am making chocolate cupcakes with peanut butter frosting. Make sure you eat good food today because good food makes you feel happy. Just like good weed makes you happy.
I hope everyone has a good day and don’t be so hard on yourself. There is no guidebook to this mom stuff so you can’t do it wrong. Your only job is to keep your kid alive until they are old enough to do it on their own. Happy Mother’s day and Happy Pet Mom’s day too cause those suckers are hard to care for also.
