Anxiety

As Official I’m sorry I haven’t been around as much, I’ve dealing so much but I’m always here for my girls! I’m just little distracted. I lost someone very important to me by my stupid actions and there’s nothing I can do change them! I’m trying so hard but I’m running out of time! My forever is choosing another one and I’m not sure how to feel about it. People aren’t perfect we all make mistakes, I’m trying to learn from mine, just didn’t think I’d lose the one I love! My best friend, my partner in business and more.. my partner in life! Like Pokémon.. I choose you!
I was only made at myself for my actions and I was trying to fix them in the way I knew how too and I fucked up... like all I can do is hope for the better and just hope that one day it’ll be us again. 3 years of my life, I can’t just forget or throw away. No one will ever compare to you! Even when I didn’t love myself, you always did and I was an idiot for not seeing that myself.. you saw me at my darkest and worst times and I still didn’t believe how much you loved me.. i always push the best ones away cause I’m scared to be happy! You told me you wanted to marry me one day and I’ll be god damn if I let someone else take my place... Imma show you how special I really am! You’ll see it’s me, you really want! I’ll love you til the day I die! I’m sorry for the rant but I’m running outta people to talk so I hope someone understands where I’m coming from.