ADD/ADHD pills

As a child, doctors diagnosed me with "ADD". Ahah well I dont really believe in ADD. During the early 2000s it was kind of a big deal. My parents wanted me to get on medication (Ritalin). I took that for a couple years, at the end of elementary school. I honestly dont remember what happend, but they took me off that and put me on another (Concerta). I was on concerta for a very limited amount of time. Something about that pill made me really crazy and my emotions were EVERYWHERE. So they decided to switch me again and put me on a new med called "Vivanse". Words can't explain how long I was on this pill for. Once I hit sophomore/junior yr, I finally stopped taking focusing drugs. After that. I had developed severe anxiety. Idk if it was from the drugs I took as a child to help me focus or idk. My mom told me I should see a therapist and see what happends, so I did. Ended up leaving with a prescription for "lorazapam" an ati anxiety med.. that was the last straw, I was sooo tired of having to take pills on pill on pills. When the end junior yr was here I decided to take my first toke of sweet mary Jane❤ It will be 10 yrs in June since I let marijuana into my life