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I've been Home in South Africa for a while now and I've come to realise how diverse and different it really is to the UK and the US. Job opportunities are highly scarce for young 'white' (unfortunately there are heavy racial issues in South africa) adults and our government is extremely corrup, resulting in thousands (almost millions) of homeless black people and in an effort to change this homelessness, all the homeless get the basic wage jobs, which is what I really need right now to make cash! I'm so lost right now, getting me a green card will cost thousands... my fiancé is determined to get us back to California, and things are really tough right now. My mental health has gotten really bad and I honestly feel so overwhelmed since getting back, heavy culture shock I guess
There are hardly any ladies who smoke weed here, honestly... the majority of people are seriously not friendly here! Excuse all the sappy bullshit, i feel so sad ive not been able to embrace the 420Nurses here so fully, I'm already so damn shy and approaching a formal business regarding an illegal substance is very nerve wrecking, fuck ߘ I hope things look up soon, I hope a big change happens and things will fall into place and I'll finally have some sense of direction ðߒ