Putting Thoughts Down.

So this is my first blog. Typing from my phone as well. I'm sorry I haven't been more involved lately as my laptop broke. Things in my life are shakey. today I woke up to a roof over my head but that could change tonight. Stress and depression rule my every waking thought & movement. I don't want to be a walking parasite. I'm tired of who I have become I want to be better then this. I need help. I need resources. I don't want to be homeless and actually very hungry instead of slightly hungry. I'm running out of options I've gone through the motions I don't apply I'm not poor enough. I love my wife and I missed what we had. Right now we're just tolerating reach other. I hate this!! I miss my mom. Heaven is so far away. I feel so broken and incomplete. I wish I had meds to help me sleep.