Tolerance Break

I have recently decided it's time for a tolerance break. I discovered I wasn't feeling the medicinal changes mentally until my 5th or 6th dab, and only then would I be comfortable and ready to take on the world. I didn't like how sensitive I had gotten being me, without the medicine. You have to take a step back sometimes and realize you are not as bad as you think.. And marijuanan doesn't change who you are, just how people perceive you. If you are being honest with yourself it's only fair to allow those you want close to see who you truly are. Yes it's wonderful to enjoy dabbing and smoking together, but it's about the community this plant has brought together, not the side effects you are feeling and then acting upon.

It is hard for me to imagine who I am without weed. I feel as if I use it as a mask sometimes to let others think they know who I truly am.. But in reality they have no idea. I believe it is time to take roll within myself and determine who I am, and what I think being "high" changes about me and make it more comfortable to expose that to others versus the truth. I struggle with inner strength and knowing I can make it, and I know being under the influence of marijuana turns my concerns down and my ambitions up. So.. I gotta stay high all the time in order to believe in myself, but then I feel dependent on this medicine for more then I should.

Does anyone else struggle like this?