So many things, so little money.

There are so many oppertunities for me out there but I fee like Im stuck once again. In my head everything is not in oerder, half od me wants to be back in California for fun stuff and nurses and the beach, casting calls and the beautiful ladies them self. But the other half of me is wanting to stay in Colorado but get out of janky Junction. Which is feel is way way to far from My Denver nurses which is making my brain hurt with the possibilities that I could have with these ladies. But at the end of it all Im still a mother (of 1) and s wife to a very suppotive man, but no money to do anything. So what do I do, sit and think of what I could be achieveing or some how make it work to were we all have fun?? I want to better myself but I dont want to leave my family.