on November 26, 2013
One thing you may not know about me. Day 6.
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So today's blog is gonna be deep, with telling you things about me I figure its a good idea to tell you the main reason that my body and brain are so fucked.
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Well as i have said i have gone through a lot of things.
When i was 4 I was molested by my grandfather for about 2 years before he had his heart attack.
When i was 5 my father raped me untill i was 11.
When i was 6 my moms second husband made me do things to him.
I didnt know who my mother was untill i was 7, and when i told her what my father had done to me she didnt believe me, but thankfully she still took me to the doctor to make sure. After that my mother mentaly and physically abused me, even after knowing what happened to me i was still never treated as her daughter until after i moved out.
Because of the 3 men who molested and raped me i have forgotten almost 99% of child hood. but sometimes i think its for the better. Unfortunatly i dont even recognize the house i was raised in.
A lot of the memorys i have have been pushed to a place where unfortunatly i cant reach them. Although it may be a good thing sometimes i just wish i knew how i grew up.j
My family on my mothers side disowned me after finding out that i was bisexual, and i was into colored men. They are both sexist and racest.
My fathers side of the family disowned me for putting my father in prison for the rest of his life. In which he fuckin deserves.
Although my father did horrible things to me there is always a part of me thats going to love him. After all he did raise me and he did give birth to me.
But my mother on the other hand. thats a different story. She never treated me like her child untill she needed me after i moved out, so why should i let her be my mom now. I shouldnt, sorry.
As a result of all those things I have a lot of problems in my body and head. as said in yesterdays blog.
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And like i said in yesterdays blog, i also have found ways for myself to get past all that, and channel the things people have done to me, to helping others.
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I know todays blog is a little on the down side compared to the rest of them, but dont think if it in a bad way.
Like i said yesterday, everything that has happened to me has made me the person i am today, and i love myself.
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Hope to hear your responces, questions and stories.
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Happy 420 everyone! CHEERS! <3
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So today's blog is gonna be deep, with telling you things about me I figure its a good idea to tell you the main reason that my body and brain are so fucked.
.
Well as i have said i have gone through a lot of things.
When i was 4 I was molested by my grandfather for about 2 years before he had his heart attack.
When i was 5 my father raped me untill i was 11.
When i was 6 my moms second husband made me do things to him.
I didnt know who my mother was untill i was 7, and when i told her what my father had done to me she didnt believe me, but thankfully she still took me to the doctor to make sure. After that my mother mentaly and physically abused me, even after knowing what happened to me i was still never treated as her daughter until after i moved out.
Because of the 3 men who molested and raped me i have forgotten almost 99% of child hood. but sometimes i think its for the better. Unfortunatly i dont even recognize the house i was raised in.
A lot of the memorys i have have been pushed to a place where unfortunatly i cant reach them. Although it may be a good thing sometimes i just wish i knew how i grew up.j
My family on my mothers side disowned me after finding out that i was bisexual, and i was into colored men. They are both sexist and racest.
My fathers side of the family disowned me for putting my father in prison for the rest of his life. In which he fuckin deserves.
Although my father did horrible things to me there is always a part of me thats going to love him. After all he did raise me and he did give birth to me.
But my mother on the other hand. thats a different story. She never treated me like her child untill she needed me after i moved out, so why should i let her be my mom now. I shouldnt, sorry.
As a result of all those things I have a lot of problems in my body and head. as said in yesterdays blog.
.
And like i said in yesterdays blog, i also have found ways for myself to get past all that, and channel the things people have done to me, to helping others.
.
I know todays blog is a little on the down side compared to the rest of them, but dont think if it in a bad way.
Like i said yesterday, everything that has happened to me has made me the person i am today, and i love myself.
.
Hope to hear your responces, questions and stories.
.
Happy 420 everyone! CHEERS! <3
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Thanks for sharing your story. It is horrible you had to go through that but like you said it's made you the person you are. And there is no problem with making your own family. Sometimes blood doesn't mean much when love and support isn't there.<br />Love reading your blogs <img src="http://420nur... View More
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