When we meet someone and start to like them, we build up all these images of the relationship in our heads. We imagine what the future could be like with them, envisioning relationship milestones and making plans. Sometimes things don't always go according to plan, sometimes the person you are hoping to build a future with had other plans in mind, and they didn't line up with yours. They usually keep us strung along by claiming they don't want to rush things and whatnot. They will make up excuse after excuse and tell you everything and anything they think you want to hear to keep you calm and controlled. Our love for them clouds our judgment, and we want to believe the lies even though our common sense is telling us this isn't adding up. How are we supposed to officially cut those ties when you're feelings are so strong? Sometimes intimacy plays a huge role in making it hard to let go. Sometimes we experience intimacy so deep like we never have before. We feel like this has to mean something but the truth is, it doesn't mean to them what it means to us. They have that way with everyone they are with and the connection you thought you felt was nothing more than an experienced man who knows how to manipulate your body. When we finally realize how destructive the relationship is and realize it isn't going in the direction you want, how are we supposed to say goodbye? How do we officially cut those ties? How are we supposed to say goodbye to someone we care so much about? It almost feels like a thousand paper cuts to your heart. It is bleeding out slow, and you have no idea how to make it stop. We want desperately to believe people can change and that somehow something inside us will make them want to be better for us, but we aren't always the exception; most of the time, we aren't. We try so hard because we think if we can get them to open up, maybe they will realize they wouldn't ever want to lose us, and the dynamic of the relationship would change. But how long is too long to wait? How much time are we supposed to invest in someone before we realize it's not going anywhere? Is a year too long? a month? Two years? How long are we supposed to sacrifice our feelings and future before we get an answer? It shouldn't be hard to tell if your feelings are reciprocated; the signs and his actions should tell you everything you need to know. If they are taking your time and love for granted, that should be a clear cut sign. A relationship is a two-way street; if the only time you see each other is at his convenience, that's another sign that this relationship is not meant to be. But what happens if you are the exception to the rule and everything we know about it doesn't apply to you because while trying to figure things out, things fell into place? How are we able to differentiate between being the rule or being the exception to the rule? How do we know if a relationship is headed in the right direction or if it's all a ploy to keep you strung around longer? All I know is that I didn't have whatever magic turns a beast into a prince, and the only way I was going to get my happy ending was if I loved them both and accept everything that came along with it, so for now, my story is still being written.
