A New Mantra Is Born

I was excited about Friday Night Sesh (as I often am).
I was looking forward to all the new people that I would meet and all the new products that I would discover.

Still, there was this uneasiness -
A feeling of impending doom.

I felt a hot flash come on, and I began to sweat, and my hands were clammy.

"Breathe Rain."

I told myself, as I inhaled a shooken breath.

"You're fine. You're okay."

I sighed deeply, lifted my head, and strutted forward.

Anxiety is no stranger to me.

"I am fine. I am okay." I affirmed.

I made my way in, and spotted Cleo and Gucci.

We embraced in a warm welcome and prepared ourselves to be annihilated by Aubrey's Honey
(as we all know, always shares the love).

I had company waiting in line, so I made my way to see their progress.

I received a text.

"She's here."

My heart raced and sank all at the same time.
My throat was tightened, and I struggled to breathe.

My head spun.

In that instant,
I discovered the origin of my angst.

I caught myself.

"Stop. You're okay."

I inhaled deeply, lifted my head, and made my way to my company.

They're in.

We stopped by Red Dragon Extracts to make a few purchases, and we branched out on our venture, from there.

I finally spotted her.

The same anxious episode from earlier repeats itself, but with a greater intensity.

I get the chills.

I whisper in her direction, hoping that some part of her subconscious will pick it up, and respect my wishes,

"Please, just stay away from me."

I breathe in deeply, whispering mantras to myself,
and finally, I feel at ease, once again.

I took calculated steps, keeping myself as far away as possible from her.

Of course, running into her was inevitable regardless of all of my calculations.

We stood about three feet from each other.

I could sense it in her eyes,
and in her cynical smile, in that single second that we made eye contact, that she had been trying to finesse her way back in, like water seeping through the cracks.

The realization hit me,
"She is not going to leave you alone."

My eyes widened at the thought.

I felt trapped - suffocated.

I just wanted to crawl out of my skin.

Then, it dawned on me,

" Self Mastery. "

"I must embody peace in the midst of this chaos."

"I must allow peace and acceptance to settle in my very bones so that any and all cracks are filled by this,
obstructing all else from taking up residence in my temple/body."

With this realization,
a beam of love transformed me,
and I began to hear the whispers of love,

"May peace penetrate every fiber of my being, making a home in my mind and my heart, where turbulence will never be welcomed, and all pains will be turned into art."

And just like that,
the love in me,
turns the jagged stones,
into polished gems.


A new mantra is born.


How could I ignore the cosmic divinity in all of this?

The medicine of peyote revealed itself in the shape of glass art - a pendant.

Peyote is a symbol of vision, healing, and transcendence.

The artist expressed, that it was the first peyote pendant that he has ever made, and thus, is one of a kind.

Only, further adding to its magic.

He added,
that it was very special to him,
and that because I had known exactly what it was,
and had expressed genuine enthusiasm for it,
he was willing to sell it to me at a discounted price.

He was even kind and generous enough to string it for me, rendering it ready for my use.

I didn't hesitate.

I pulled it right over my head,
as it settled around my neck.

I verbally expressed my appreciation,
as I gripped the pendant in my right fist.

Finally, I bowed my head,
and joined my hands in absolute gratitude.

I felt the love,
and I wanted the whole universe to feel it.

In heart and in spirit, I whispered,

" May the love in me swell like the ocean,
and like the tides, may I grace the myriad faces on the shores "


Stay Lifted My Friends.

Always Stay Lifted.