Panic attack

So today I had a panic attack... and not a mild one. The whole sabang.. broke down, couldn't breathe, thought I was going to die. I don't know any other way besides hopeless. I got stuck in the trim cabin, the wind slammed the door so hard that it got jammed. I tried to kick it open, slam my body against it but nothing was working. I immediately started panicking. Even worse is I had no service. I literally thought I was going to die in a trim cabin...


Anyways I ended up getting service and calling my boss and the team got the door open but I have never had such a harsh panic attack. Even after the door was open I did not feel safe in there. The best part is I was panicking so much that I couldn't think. I shut down, curled in a ball and tried to just focus on my breathing.. So I completely forgot there was another door.. Just locked from the inside that we never use. I felt so dumb and just really low, that I was in a situation where I needed to think my way out and I just couldn't do anything. I was so scared my teeth were chattering..

Anyways, I took the rest of the day off. FUCK that cabin for today lol.